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Montjoye's avatar

Argh. Sympathy. Somewhat similarly I have two sets of camping gear that I tend to think I'm not going to use again but am I ready to make that call and get rid of them?

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Absolutely. We all change, so we all meet a version of this moment. Thank you for sharing that.

Heather Fernon's avatar

I am often reminded of a talk Grayson Perry gave in 2013 at UCL "7 Lessons in Creativity". The main take away was 'Stay on the Bus' ! Every photographer has 'Stuff' - extra lenses, camera bodies, props, lighting gear etc stored in various locations. Don't ask if it will every come in handy again ! I'm sure you can use the nippers when you want to complete the project, and you will feel all the better for having accomplished the task!

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Thanks Heather. I take your point. Also, I have many creative busses and only one petite apartment.

Heather Fernon's avatar

LOL No worries. The good thing about creative busses is that their inspiration can always be flat packed for later!

Claudia's avatar

When I was in high school I wrote a bunch sappy " high school unrequited love" songs. Here I am now at 71 writing songs about all kindsa stuff.

You never know for sure. It's an upward spiral. Or can be...

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Brava, Claudia! I’m so glad songwriting came back around for you. Fingers crossed for me and mosaics.

Claudia's avatar

Yes. You know that Renaissance "masters" had apprentices to do the nitty gritty stuff... I know of a large-scale fabric artist who would never in a lifetime be able to stitch all the stitching that goes into her work....just saying....

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

It is a useful idea, thanks. Sadly I love getting stuck in myself, rather than managing an atelier. I note that the two mosaicists I’ve met in person find stone cutting the least enjoyable part of their work. Kind of how most knitters wish they could find someone who loves sewing up knitted pieces, but those people don’t seem to exist.

Claudia's avatar

Darn....

Sabah Mirza's avatar

Beautifully written. I’m savouring, and reflecting on, many words. Is it yearning or nostalgia? How do we ever know? 💗

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Thank you, Sabah. Yearning can be tricky. I remember reading a definition of forgiveness as ‘giving up all hope of having had a better past’.

Sabah Mirza's avatar

I need to remember that definition of forgiveness. Thank you.

Gary Drouillard's avatar

Lovely how well this turned out, Michelle, even with the topic being such a difficult subject.

My deepest regrets usually fall into the “what could have been” category, and they come less from opportunities denied me than from intentions I failed to follow through on. Denied opportunities must feel much crueller.

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Thank you, Gary. I suspect the difference between regretting opportunities that you weren’t able to make the most of, and opportunities that were closed to you by circumstances outside your influence are two different flavours of regret. It might depend on your individual sensitivities as to which is crueler?

Kellie O'Connor's avatar

A touching story of allowing -

of dreams

of emotions

of letting go

of bitter, and necessary acceptance

Masterpiece!

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Thank you, Kellie. I’m honoured to write words that touched you, and that you describe the piece so poetically 💞

Jeffrey Streeter's avatar

Many years ago, probably inspired by my time living in the Andes, I bought a pair of expensive hiking boots. They remained almost unused for years, mostly gathering dust and losing what flexibility they ever had. Eventually I got rid of them. Last year I did some reserahc and found that hiking shoes were more what I was after and I found a superbly comfortable pair. I wear them many times a week, on my urban rambles. It took me a long time to get round to finding what I really needed.

Michelle Spencer (she/her)'s avatar

Oooh that is such a good insight, Jeffrey. The things that aren’t right for us may be blocking the things that are. Not in a moral sense, just in a practical one. Thank you for reposting and for sharing your wisdom.